"I want to be like a Sunflower; so that even on the darkest days I will stand tall and find the sunlight".
Everybody has gone through something that has completely changed them in a way that they could never go back to the person that they once were.
This past year has been nothing short of a hell for my girls and I.
There are huge life changing events that can happen to a person over a lifetime, and we have had most of them happen to us in just over a year's time.
So I dropped off the grid for a bit. Yes I was still shooting, but not as much as I wanted or needed to.
My focus was turned to my children and keeping us afloat. My time was spent on raising my beautiful girls, becoming a full time employee and running not only a household but my own business as well. I needed to do my best to create a happy environment.
There is so much to our story, so much that people who think they know, have absolutely no clue at all.
When you go through a tragedy, it is so true that you really find out who is there for you for the right reasons, and who isn't. It's life's own way of creating a un-friend button for you. It is very surprising, but also a very painful thing to have to go through. And instead of asking us how we were, or what exactly happened, or even questioning anything at all....People assumed. People created rumors. People used my situation and children to raise money for their benefit.
So instead of giving into the drama and ridiculousness, I worked.
I just kept my head down, went off social media for a few months and worked. And then I worked some more, and more after that. At night I would get into bed feeling more tired that I ever have, and then I would get back up and do it again the next day.
At this point in my life, I have hit rock bottom. I am at the lowest point I think I can get.
And you know what I am doing right now?
I am working.
I am building up my business again and I am going to kick butt. I want to show my girls how to be strong. And fierce. And how to take life by the horns.
Because even though we have been through hell this year, I will still rise to the sunlight and keep my head up.
Sometimes when things are falling so far apart in your life, they may actually be falling into place.
And to those that have been by my side, that have asked me how I am or how the girls are, or that have watched them or have helped me...You are all angels walking this earth and Thank You doesn't even begin to explain the gratitude that I have for you.
So the haters, they can hate me. Because it's easier than beating me.